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Angry
Jun 26, 2008 | 9:26 AM
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Recently, I have lost two beloved family members. One, I never got the pleasure of meeting alive only feeling the little movements. The other to a tragic auto accident. At first I was so ANGRY with God. I very well still may be. I am having a hard time coming to terms with why they were taken. Why God would do this??? I don't have any answers only an aching heart and a constant flow of tears. I try to make peace knowing one is watching after the other in Heaven..... but it still angers/hurts. Maybe I am not a Christian because how can I be angry at God?
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Searchingtoo read my blog view my photos
Jun 26, 2008 | 2:57 PM

First of all you would not be the first, nor the last Christian to be angry and question God. The bible is full of them and they walk the streets everyday.
Second.. I am sorry you lost your baby BeStrong.. just hang in there and BE STRONG... the anger will pass.. and so will the sadness... until then.. we'll be here.
X-raygal
Jun 26, 2008 | 3:06 PM

BeStrong I am so sorry for your losses. I have also lost a child to miscarriage. Nothing really seems to help except know that good thoughts are with you during this sad time. In times like these there always seem to be more questions than answers. Again so sorry.
weina read my blog view my photos
Jun 26, 2008 | 3:29 PM

Be Strong we havent chatted but I do know you have been over on Jps oasis in the past.

I will let you know first hand I know all to well the loss of an unborn baby. I have lost not one but three. If you need a shoulder to lean on, or an ear to listen Please know that I am here for you. I believe you have searchingtoo's email and she has mine. If you would like to chat get my info from her when you are up to it.

I will tell you that the pain of the loss with fade, but the loss will never completely go away. In your own way do a memorial for yourself something to memorialize the baby. I did this for each of my losses. Its something that was symbolic to just me, my family was aware of it but they just let me do what i needed to do. My prayers are with you in both losses you have suffered. Like Searchingtoo said. BE STRONG!!!!!!
CareBear1st read my blog view my photos
Jun 26, 2008 | 5:19 PM

BeStrong, I too have lost a precious baby and I was very angry at not just God but everyone in general. It took time and the support of my family and friends to finally help lessen the pain and anger. Grieve and be mad otherwise you will never be able to move forward and begin to live your life and enjoy the beautifulness of your daughter.

You know how to get hold of me honey, and anytime you want to vent, rage or just plain be sad I'll be here for you.
gravelroad read my blog
Jun 26, 2008 | 5:56 PM

christians are not promsed a bed of roses in fact the devil is always after you and will use any thing to get you you to blame God pray and talk to a minster you will happy you did
Searchingtoo read my blog view my photos
Jun 27, 2008 | 9:32 AM

We had a youth minister in our church that used to council the teens. Teens used to tell him all the time it is so hard to be a christian because there is so much pressure from everything around them.

He used to tell them that's the way the devil works.. always in your face and trying to get you to change your mind... He used to say "IF you dont wake up in the morning and run straight face to face into the devil, you are probably traveling in the same direction"
BeStrong read my blog view my photos
Jun 27, 2008 | 10:03 AM

Thanks everyone... I just never imagined the intense pain something like this would bring. I have called my pastor and seeing him on Saturday. I think you all are right the Devil is testing my faith and I will come through all this with a stronger faith than ever.
2minikdz read my blog view my photos
Jun 27, 2008 | 11:33 AM

BeStrong...I'm so happy to see you're seeing the pastor. I too have lost a baby (miscarriage) and my grandson (5 months in the womb)who was a twin. We all see so much pain and indifference. But BeStrong, God led me to know in my heart, something was wrong w/ the babies and now I feel they're little angels playing w/ your little angel. BeStrong, they're in God's hands, arms, REALLY! thank you so much for comming to us, as well, because look @ the spport you're recieving from us too! satan (I never capitalize that word)is subtle and laughs his butt off when we doubt God. The Lord loves you and is holding you as we are!
linecrosser read my blog
Jun 30, 2008 | 3:23 AM

Scream and cry as long as you want, directly right to God. He understands, the amount of your pain and anger is only a indication of your love and His. You are in my tears and prayers.
weina read my blog view my photos
Jul 1, 2008 | 8:10 AM

Be Strong, I hope you are finding strength everyday. I have uploaded a pic that hopefully you too will find peace in.

I mentioned in previous post that I memorailized my babies. After my 3rd loss I was shopping at a local Hobby store, walked past this statue and started bawling, I didnt have the money to purchase it that day but went back later and bought the last on on the shelf. I knew that it was meant for me to purchase. It sits on my Dinning room on display to remind me of the babies that I have lost. Morbid to some but to me it gives me peaace knowing that my babies are craddled in Gods hands. God Bless you!!

Again if you want to chat feel free to get my contact info from Searchingtoo
nursiba read my blog
Jul 3, 2008 | 3:54 AM

I know how it feels to lose beloved ones. Death and all about it brings nothing but intense grief. Nothing but grief if we only confine ourselves to pain and the emptiness it brings. When it happened to me, I asked myself: Will I not die? Am I given the chance to take hold of my destiny or earthly time? I asked too many things which I knew were all beyond my control. It was only when I started endorsing every thing to God that I found the pain eventually healed. Wound always bring scars. But when we relieve pain with the thought of God over all these painful things, He will always let us see the golden rays behind His Will.
SmallBusinessKC read my blog
Jul 3, 2008 | 12:11 PM

This is a very common question to ask. I've always been taught to not question why He does something, such as take something from us, but it is alright to ask him for his reasoning. I also have found web site that is full of tips on living a Christian life and what to do when you are having issues.
mabell read my blog
Jul 6, 2008 | 9:37 PM

BeStrong, I lost a baby at birth and a grandson in a car accident when he was 15 years old. I know exactly the pain and anger you're feeling. Anger is not unusual when we lose someone, it'a the first stage of grief.
Just keep in mind, 'If He leads you to it, He will lead you through it. Don't give up on God, he won't give up on you.
jstol3 read my blog
Jul 13, 2008 | 6:17 PM

Be Strong -

I'm terribly sorry for your loss. May God give you peace!
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Anyone who knows history, particularly the history of Europe, will, I think, recognize that the domination of education or of government by any one particular religious faith is never a happy arrangement for the people. Eleanor Roosevelt Anyone who thinks must think of the next war as they would of suicide. Eleanor Roosevelt In the long run, we shape our lives, and we shape ourselves. The process never ends until we die. And the choices we make are ultimately our own responsibility. Eleanor Roosevelt

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