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by TaraOlivia from Wakeman

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Beautiful Baby Contest!!
May 2, 2007 | 7:28 PM
Category: Entertainment
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Hi there, I hope that everyone is doing ok. I'm alright, just have alot of things on my mind.

Today I entered my baby boy Denver into the beautiful baby contest... I hope that he wins but if he doesn't that's ok, he will always  be my beautiful boy no matter what!  There's alot of cute babies on there too, I think that it's interesting to read about them.

Anyway, I have been thinking alot about my life and what I am going to do about my future, and it scares me, because I feel like i'm not going to do good enough for some reason. I just recently bought my first car, signed up for rental assistance but the waiting list is long... and I do need to be getting my own place as soon as possible so I do not know if I can wait for that rental assistance. There are some personal issues with where I live right now and all I will mention is alcohol and ciggarette smoke. And I hate that to be around baby!

I am still in school as well and I was hoping to go to a vocational school of some sort soon for maybe something in the medical field??? I am interested in Photography as well so maybe i'll just do both! But for now I just need to find a decent job to bring in some extra income... I need to find a good trustworthy babysitter though. Which is hard to do.

I don't know... I am a firm believer in God and I feel like he will guide me on the right path and help me through.

I also have been having some trouble with my boyfriend, we have been together for a long time now.... a couple years actually...broke up once for nine months though but got back together.... Anywho I am upset with him because he hasn't gotten a job yet.... he claims how much he loves Denver and how much he wants all of us to get our own place together...but he still doesn't have a job yet... I understand that he got his license taken away for some speeding tickets, running a stop sign, and driving without insurance about 8 months ago but he can easily walk or ride a bike to work as well. Now he isn't the biological father of Denver but he accepts himself as the father figure. Denver's biological father wants nothing to do with him, how could you not want something to do with something so cute!? I have no idea, but I go to child-support court May 15th!

I do have alot of stress but I am going to try to put all that aside and just try to be happy and not think about it. In fact, everytime I look at Denver he makes me smile.... he makes me realize that he is my purpose and what keeps me going and on my feet. I will do anything for that little boy!

 

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survivormom read my blog view my photos
May 3, 2007 | 7:01 AM

Wow...sounds like you have your hands full. My heart goes out to you. My only advice to you keep your head high and keep the faith that you have in God. All things happen for a reason and although you may never find out why, it will all work out in the end. Don't be scared about your future. Sounds scary, feels scary , especially with a little one. Just follow your heart. You have some pretty good ideas for the job force. Both are needed fields. You could do the medical field as a full time and the photography when you have spare time ...extra income. You are going to be just fine!! but another bit of advice if I may with no disrespect...speaking from experience here....get rid of the guy!!! Do it now before it's too late. He may be good to a son that is not biologically his, but if he doesn't work he is not a man. He will never be good for you if he makes excuses now. Trust me I was there before. Good luck to you, I wish you all the best to you and that beautiful baby. YOU CAN DO IT!!!!
girlscout read my blog view my photos
May 3, 2007 | 9:36 AM

Don't depend on photography for an income. There are so many fantastic photographers out there trying to sell their work. (I know - I am in a Photo Club). Last week I was at a Craft Show and some photographers who had some gorgeous shots were not doing too good selling their work. And survivormom is right. dump the guy! If he doesn't work now, you will have nothing but problems with him in the future. My daughter used to date a guy who hopped from job to job - never stayed in one place for more than a month. After she wasted 4 years of her life on him, he left for another state. Good Luck with all your issues and God Bless You!
jigsgirl read my blog view my photos
May 3, 2007 | 11:12 AM

Tara believe me when I tell you I have been there very recently. I have a beautiful daughter who is 4 months old and she is the light of my life. Everytime she smiles at me and giggles it makes me feel like nothing else in the world matters only her. I had a real hard time with her father who I have been with for 7 years and up until recently he was the same as yours. I love him dearly but I love myself and my daughter more. So keep your head up work hard and never stop believing in God. He will make a way for you and you will be blessed. Denver should be your inspiration not a man. Do for yourself and that precious little man you have and never depend on any man for anything. I will be hard but at the end of the day it is all worth it. Good luck and God bless. If your gonna pray don't worry and if your gonna worry don't pray. Put it in God's hands and let him do his work.
jedalex read my blog
May 3, 2007 | 8:10 PM

dont let these people deceive you. you create your own existence by the choices you make. you make bad decisions bad things happen. you make good decisions good things happen. you rely on external forces an invisible entities to take care of things, it probably will not go very well. you cant just sit around and hope that someone you cant see do their work. you have to do the work. thats it. their is no easy way out. you either make good choices in life or you dont. and things dont happen for a reason. things happen because of the choices we make. weather happens because we have an atmosphere. fire happens because of a spark fueled by oxygen. so dont waste time trying to figure out why is this happening to me. when things happen to you, asses the situation and make a sound decision to best combat what ever is happening. if a fire breaks out you get water. if it rains you get an umbrella. if your boyfriend doesnt get a job....
All i know is that when i make a bad choice and things arent right i make sure that the next actions i take are actions that will change the situation that i am in. hopefully you will find someone who has some ambition to make a good life for both of you as a team. anyway i wish you luck and if you make the right choices i bet you 2 years from now you will be proud of yourself and as well you should be.
BMHINTY read my blog view my photos
May 4, 2007 | 5:08 PM

I have to ask, where is your family in time of need? You are such a beautiful young girl that has a very beautiful baby and I can't help but wonder why your parents, siblings, aunts uncles, cousins etc. aren't stepping in to lend you a helping hand. Your baby should be your number 1 priority along with getting an education. You will struggle for the rest of your life without it. I give you a lot of credit. From what I read above, you do want to make a difference in your life. As for your boyfriend, he needs to understand that if he wants to be with you he needs to want your son also. And that means get a job and quit mooching off of you. But you need to also think about if he is the type of role model you want your son to look up to. From the sounds of it, he is still very irresponsible getting his license taken away for all the traffic violations. Being 18 and having a baby made you grow up real fast but it's not making your boyfriend grow up and realize what he needs to do. And I'm not saying to rely on any man finacially, but you do need help. I wish you the best of luck for you and your son and I pray that you make the right decisions. Because what you decide today will affect your future.

By the way, I have a 9 month old and I know what you mean about wanting a trustworthy babysitter. I am in Brook Park and if that's is not far from you, I can help you out.

Marisa
TaraOlivia read my blog view my photos
May 6, 2007 | 10:27 AM

Thank you all for your advice!!
survivormom read my blog view my photos
May 7, 2007 | 5:13 AM

Tara~~
You are very welcomed!! I hope it did not sound mean, but I have been there and I know. Just hate to see another woman go through a rough time. We are blind when it comes to men, but trust me when I say there is the right one out there. You just need to be patient and he will find you!! Godd luck and God Bless You, if you ever need to talk you know how to get ahold of me!!
jigsgirl read my blog view my photos
Jan 8, 2008 | 4:51 PM

Hey tara...hadn't seen anything from you recently so I just wanted to see how you were. I hope that your situation is better and things are working out for you. How is that little angel of yours? Mine is perfect, just turned 1 on Saturday so it's been busy but fun. Hope to hear from you soon, Take care.
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TaraOlivia

My name is Tara. I'm 18. Home-schooled. Have a beautiful son named Denver Cole who was born December 19, 2006. In a serious relationship. Love music, dancing, nature, art, and believe in God. Just bought a car (2000 Malibu) and applied for an apartment ( waiting on someone to move out ). I don't take anything for granted.

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